We are officially one week into Camp Nanowrimo and things are…going? This week was a crap week for a kick off. I went in with so much gusto but then I got into my head way to much when I actually sat down to write and essentially cockblocked myself–I don’t want to call it writer’s block, because ideas and inspiration was definitely churning, but every time I went to write it out, I went blank and got back into my head with “this is dumb”, and “are these even words?!”.
In all honesty, I was ready to just call it done and lock this little dream of mine with the rest of the unfulfilled things I want to do in the back of my soul. But I am determined to at least struggle through this month before calling it done–so prepare to meet my victory…or doom?
With that said let’s look at my daily thoughts earlier this week!
Friday/Saturday, June 28/29, 2019:
Not sure if this was dumb or not seeing as how it is so close to July but ya girl went and got the trial of Scrivner to try out. Is this me trying to fit in or genuinely curious to see if this program will be a better fit for my writing needs? Honestly, it’s high chance of being both. I’ve seen so much talk about the program, and based off the tutorial I am almost done with–ya girl is possibly in love with it? Only time tell now…
Currently the game plan is to read all the things before NANO starts and start compiling and setting up my research and draft into a scrivener document/project before July rolls around. I don’t have much left of the tutorial, so I think I am making solid time on that front. Could I be doing something far more productive in my prep then learning a new program? Yes, yes I could–but I didn’t choose this gullible life, the gullible life chose me.
Back to the computer I go!
Sunday, June 30, 2019:
SO MUCH TO DO AND ONLY 24 HOURS! WHAT THE FUCK WAS I THINKING?!
Okay, it’s been a few hours and I’m more calm–not sure if this is because I’ve given up on trying to obtain that picture-esque thought of what prepared is and accepted that being prepped looks and comes in different forms or if I am just slowly waddling my way into the throwing in the towel zone. Hopefully it’s the former.
Let’s do this shit.
Monday, July 1, 2019:
Words written: 1,082 | Total Word Count: 1,082
I am reminded why I suck at finishing WIPs…I suck at writing the beginning–I never know where to start the blasted thing, and when I do I can’t formulate words together.
But that’s okay! I’m gonna make this my bitch! If it takes me writing trash and chanting repeatedly that this is a first draft and first drafts are shit, then you can bet your pretty little face that is what I am gonna do. Just gotta push through.
Needless to say I am hating past Sam for the decision of 1k a day. Yup.
Update: Past Sam hate has diminished some…
Tuesday, July 2, 2019:
Words written: 0 | Total Word Count: 1082
I have absolutely no clue what the fuck I wrote yesterday and I don’t know how to continue…
Wednesday, July 3, 2019:
Words written: 922 | Total Word Count: 922
Okay so the words I wrote were shit so during my lunch break I deleted it and wrote something completely different. I am not in love with it, but it makes more sense in my head and I’m able to push the plot forward enough to write.
Honestly I don’t know what I’m doing and I super regret making 1k my daily goal.
Thursday, July 4, 2019:
Words written: 0| Total Word Count: 922
LOL what even is writing cause I didn’t do it.
Friday, July 5, 2019:
Words written: 0 | Total Word Count: 922
I swear I was going to write today, but reading looked way more appealing. So that is what I did.
…Definitely hating my ambitiousness of past Sam currently, cause now I feel like a failure but whatever. Tomorrow is a new day, so hopefully I can catch up and get some words in!
And we are current! Check out today’s thoughts and progress on next Saturday’s check in! But until then…
Are you participating in Camp this month? If so, in five words describe your WIP!