Happy Friday everyone! If you can’t tell by the title of this post, today is my birthday! I am officially 23 years old–which is completely crazy and I am totally not certain how I feel about being allowed to be more adult than I was before (Like honestly, who gave me permission to do things?!).
Typically one would find the usual “23 things I learned in 23 years” post/video, but being me I wanted to be different and also staying on brand with my love of lists; so it got me thinking about everything I have learned throughout my years and suddenly I started wondering what I wanted my twenty-third year in this great vast world to look like–realistically.
So this is where my on-brand birthday post deviates from every other birthday post out there. Instead of looking back at my past, I’m going to look to my future. What do I want to accomplish or make head way with in the next 365 days? What hurdles do I want to climb to make me a better human?
Without further ado, here is a list (told you I was staying on-brand) of Twenty-three things I want to accomplish for my twenty-third year of living.
1. Get more involved in the bookish community/make some bookish friends!
This one is a big one for me, because I tend to stay off to the sides and keep to myself for fear of being awkward or that shy girl who no one really cares about. But the bookish community has been the most loving people I have seen and have really made me feel accepted no matter how MIA I become. So becoming more involved within the community–whether that be here in the book blogging world or on booktube or Book Twitter– is something that is high on my list. I want to make long-lasting friendships with people who love the same things I do! Which is books!
2. Audition for at least 1 production
Okay so some of you may not know this, but I love theatre–so much so, that I got my degree in Theatre and Film performance. But since graduating I have refused to audition for any production I see being advertised where I live; solely because I am scared that I’m not good enough to make it in a professional/non-school setting.
I don’t want my fear of not being good enough to cloud my life this year. New year–new skin. Will this happen over night? Most definitely not. Am I willing to step out of my comfort bubble to find out? Yes.
3. Read the books that excite me
I feel like it is so easy to follow the hype of a new book and to keep with what everyone is saying you force yourself to read it or finish reading it, even though you really don’t like it or didn’t want to read it to begin with. I’ve done this more times than I’m willing to admit, and I feel like because of this, my potential for loving said book diminishes because I’m forcing myself to read it at a time that wasn’t right for me.
I don’t want to do that anymore.
I want to read the books that I want to read because I’m excited to read them–not because everyone else is reading it. I want to read the books that make me giddy when I’m given the chance to read it.
4. Get my driver’s license!
Honestly, I just thinks it’s time.
5. Stay consistent with the things I set out to do
Consistency or rather, sticking to things, has never been my friend when it comes to things I do for fun–example: this blog, my booktube channel.
I want to stick to a schedule and maintain it!
6. BEGIN MY WIP…and not delete it after 3 paragraphs…
Guys I’ve been writing this WIP for what seems like 84 years.
I honestly, think I don’t continue it because I know it’s a load of crap (even though I keep telling myself the first draft is supposed to be crap); but I don’t want that to hinder me anymore! I want to begin my WIP (again) and finish the first draft or at least make a nice, semi-huge dent into it.
7. Continue voicing my emotions
This one I learned how to do earlier this year and honestly it has helped my mental health in ways that I cannot begin to describe to you. I was always scared that by saying no to something or telling someone that, what they were asking made me uncomfortable would make me the bad guy or cause drama that I just didn’t need in my life.
But that wasn’t the case!
Honestly, being honest with people and expressing myself has saved me more than keeping my mouth shut did–especially at work; and because of that I want to strengthen my resolve to express my emotions to people.
8. Be Better with Money
I mean this one is pretty self-explanatory.
9. Talk about the things I love
I think I put myself into a box when it comes to my blog and my booktube. What I mean by this is that I think that there is a certain structure or rule book on what one can and cannot talk about–when there isn’t! So with this resolution I want to stop being worried about people not liking the things I do and start talking about the things I love, like theatre, movies, and ranting about bookish things. Because honestly, who cares?
10. DNF books that I don’t want to finish
This one I am horrible at. I feel super bad about not finishing a book, even though I am absolutely hating it, that I continue and trudge on and finish it. Thus, I waste valuable Sam time that could have been spent reading something I probably would have adored ten times more than the lump of coal I tried to force feed myself.
ITS OKAY TO DNF BOOKS FUTURE SAMANTHA!!!!
11. Stop comparing myself to other’s reading Journeys
I talked about this a little bit in a previous post, but I feel like this is something I still need to work on. I am a huge comparison person, especially in the bookish community. I always find myself comparing my reading journey with other people’s reading journey and then feeling bad when I find out that so and so read 100 books already and I’ve only read like 13.
My journey is going to be different from everyone else’s; and that is completely and irrevocably okay.
12. Buy the books I want to buy
If I want to buy and read trash novels like fifty shades of grey, best believe I am going to buy and read that trash novel. This year, I’m going to stop letting people’s opinions and views on books stop me from creating my own opinion and views on books.
13. Travel somewhere by myself
Now this doesn’t have to be out of the country, but I would like to travel to a new city by myself.
14. Put myself out there!
Whether that be in the bookish community, with my writing, or even with my acting. I don’t want my fear to keep me from doing the things I love.
15. Eat Healthier
Cookies are not healthy eating Samantha.
16. Get into a physical activity
That doesn’t involve being in my pajamas or on my computer. I want to try my hand at going outside and sweating.
17. Get a different haircut
Okay, so if you are a close friend of mine, you would know that this is a big one for me. I’ve had the same haircut/style since I was twelve when my mom cut my long lush hair (which was also on my birthday) into a super short bob. I’ve been growing my hair back to its original long length ever since (it was to my hip). But some time this year, I would like to make a chop. it doesn’t have to be length wise it could be getting bangs or dying my hair for the first time, but I want to do something different with my hair.
18. Volunteer for something I’m passionate about.
Dogs and Libraries…not necessarily in that order.
19. Go on a Date!
Okay so I’m not really going to force this one because you kind of need a second party for this to happen. But if the offer presents itself, I’m making a vow to not turn it down (unless safety is in jeopardy).
20. Let go of toxic friendships
I certainly don’t have time to hold onto something that isn’t serving a purpose in neither of our lives, and I certainly don’t need to anymore negative energy floating around in my bubble. So this is the year of letting go and moving on.
21. Learn something new
Whether this be a skill or a new hobby, I want to learn something new like calligraphy or water colors!
22. Be more confident
I want to be able to wake up like Beyonce and look at myself and say “Hot damn, you a snack”
23. Learn to just…be.
I saw this online once when I was googling my annual “what do I do with my life” and in the article I was reading a guy commented saying that the Italians have a word–asolare— which translates to spending one’s time in a meaningless but all the same a joyous way. This comment has stuck with me since. I want to learn to stop constantly trying to do, and learn to just be.