Becoming Hamilton || CAMP NANOWRIMO Week #1

We are officially one week into Camp Nanowrimo and things are…going? This week was a crap week for a kick off. I went in with so much gusto but then I got into my head way to much when I actually sat down to write and essentially cockblocked myself–I don’t want to call it writer’s block, because ideas and inspiration was definitely churning, but every time I went to write it out, I went blank and got back into my head with “this is dumb”, and “are these even words?!”.
In all honesty, I was ready to just call it done and lock this little dream of mine with the rest of the unfulfilled things I want to do in the back of my soul. But I am determined to at least struggle through this month before calling it done–so prepare to meet my victory…or doom?
With that said let’s look at my daily thoughts earlier this week!
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Friday/Saturday, June 28/29, 2019:

Not sure if this was dumb or not seeing as how it is so close to July but ya girl went and got the trial of Scrivner to try out. Is this me trying to fit in or genuinely curious to see if this program will be a better fit for my writing needs? Honestly, it’s high chance of being both. I’ve seen so much talk about the program, and based off the tutorial I am almost done with–ya girl is possibly in love with it? Only time tell now…
Currently the game plan is to read all the things before NANO starts and start compiling and setting up my research and draft into a scrivener document/project before July rolls around. I don’t have much left of the tutorial, so I think I am making solid time on that front. Could I be doing something far more productive in my prep then learning a new program? Yes, yes I could–but I didn’t choose this gullible life, the gullible life chose me.
Back to the computer I go!

Sunday, June 30, 2019:

SO MUCH TO DO AND ONLY 24 HOURS! WHAT THE FUCK WAS I THINKING?!
Okay, it’s been a few hours and I’m more calm–not sure if this is because I’ve given up on trying to obtain that picture-esque thought of what prepared is and accepted that being prepped looks and comes in different forms or if I am just slowly waddling my way into the throwing in the towel zone. Hopefully it’s the former.
Let’s do this shit.

Monday, July 1, 2019:

Words written: 1,082 | Total Word Count: 1,082

I am reminded why I suck at finishing WIPs…I suck at writing the beginning–I never know where to start the blasted thing, and when I do I can’t formulate words together.
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But that’s okay! I’m gonna make this my bitch! If it takes me writing trash and chanting repeatedly that this is a first draft and first drafts are shit, then you can bet your pretty little face that is what I am gonna do. Just gotta push through.
Needless to say I am hating past Sam for the decision of 1k a day. Yup.
Update: Past Sam hate has diminished some…

Tuesday, July 2, 2019:

Words written: 0 | Total Word Count: 1082

I have absolutely no clue what the fuck I wrote yesterday and I don’t know how to continue…

Wednesday, July 3, 2019:

Words written: 922 | Total Word Count: 922

Okay so the words I wrote were shit so during my lunch break I deleted it and wrote something completely different. I am not in love with it, but it makes more sense in my head and I’m able to push the plot forward enough to write.
Honestly I don’t know what I’m doing and I super regret making 1k my daily goal.

Thursday, July 4, 2019:

Words written: 0| Total Word Count: 922

LOL what even is writing cause I didn’t do it.

Friday, July 5, 2019:

Words written: 0 | Total Word Count: 922

I swear I was going to write today, but reading looked way more appealing. So that is what I did.
…Definitely hating my ambitiousness of past Sam currently, cause now I feel like a failure but whatever. Tomorrow is a new day, so hopefully I can catch up and get some words in!


And we are current! Check out today’s thoughts and progress on next Saturday’s check in! But until then…

Are you participating in Camp this month? If so, in five words describe your WIP!

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11 Comments

  1. Jeimy @ ANovelidea

    July 6, 2019 at 11:07 am

    Girl, I feel you on a spiritual level. I absolutely HATE my WIP but we have to push through it. Get the idea out and when CAMP is done, go back and edit and change things. I always remind myself that I hate it now but it’s better giving it life that wondering what couldve been. We are our worst critics!
    Describing my WIP in 5 words….. Jeimy what are you writing?
    Sending good and productive vibes your way Sam! <3

  2. TheCaffeinatedReader

    July 6, 2019 at 12:48 pm

    You may find yourself completely inspired by what you read, so, reading counts as helping you with your WIP. I know you got this, but your gifs and descriptions had me laughing. Now, get to work.

  3. Jonny Pongratz

    July 6, 2019 at 4:27 pm

    I definitely feel your frustration. I’ve hardly managed an hour a day if even that. Hoping to do better next week but I don’t think it’s very likely.

  4. Ruby's Books

    July 7, 2019 at 4:17 am

    What Haley said, reading counts as research. Okay so I am not participating. I honestly am not in the right mind set for it, so I’m waiting for the next one. Which with my luck I’m assuming is going to be next year or something. But I feel you. My WIP is…well…all of them actually are a hot mess. One is just completely refusing to show me the entire story, while the other one is showing me the very end and possibly how it will continue?? BUT HOW THE HELL DID MY CHARACTER END THERE??? WHAT ARE WORDS?? I feel you. I also have much faith in you and I know you’ll rock this.

  5. selfcaresloth

    July 7, 2019 at 5:39 am

    At least you’re still going! I 100% know how you feel, this is my first Camp NaNo and I am STRUGGLING!! A few thousand words behind my target already and I’m pretty certain that what I do have is just a bit crap. But I am working on the theory that at least there are words on a page, and I’ve had this many words on a page before, so I might as well just keep trying.
    My WIP is a middle grade fiction about a cat – so none of the crazy research that I keep hearing about people needing to do!
    Good luck for the rest of the month! 🙂
    Sammy | Self-Care Sloth

  6. Meeghan reads

    July 9, 2019 at 7:08 am

    Sam, I am sending virtual hugs and cupcakes your way, with actual creativity good vibes. You can do it!! I will cheer you on if I have to!! 🎉🎉💕

    1. Sam || Fictionally Sam

      July 22, 2019 at 9:26 am

      Thank you! *nibbles on cupcakes* <3 <3

  7. Kal @ Reader Voracious

    July 9, 2019 at 9:19 pm

    Oh no, Sam! I think the most important part about writing is just getting the words out. I’d recommend writing them and trying not to focus on their quality. Focus on the story and characters – no one writes a perfect first draft, and wordsmithing/massive edits can be done in revision. Stick with it and I am rooting for you! Feel free to brainstorm or ask me for crit if you want it, I am your biggest cheerleader in this endeavor!

    1. Sam || Fictionally Sam

      July 22, 2019 at 9:31 am

      Mah heart! Thank you Kal! I needed to read this today, so bless you! <3

  8. Camilla @ Reader in the Attic

    July 12, 2019 at 2:54 pm

    Sam, this whole read was so precious because I feel you so much. This is the Emperor of Moods.
    Don’t feel shitty, there a whole writing life for feeling so in the future. For now it’s great that you’re writing and putting on page the words you want, even if it means taking your time rewriting some of them until it works

    1. Sam || Fictionally Sam

      July 22, 2019 at 10:15 am

      Such big moods! lmao
      And thank you for your words Cam! I needed to hear that today! <3

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